I haven't written anything in a very long time. This long drawn out recession has me missing so many of my friends who haven't been able to see me. You really get down about so much during times of constant trial.  I think it is very hard to face up to trouble. It feels shameful to face loosing things you love and then talk about them on top of all that.

Where is the girl who dressed like a dirty martini at the Folsom Street Fair? I always want to just hug the world. Where is that girl that was just so disgusting that loved everyone? I want to make love to the world. Let's all have a big orgy. That girl! Where?

She is still here. I love sensuality. I don't want to conform. Looking for the next big wow! Can you wow me? I need to be taken on an E ticket ride. Something to remember.

        

Marlon Brando in Candy from 1968 part 1

You must watch this video in it's entirety to get the real humor in it.

Marlon Brando in Candy part 2

Be certain to watch the second part.

        

I noticed the other day when I was in the hair salon under the dryer, that the size of the models still look terrible. I was hoping that the fashion industry would get IT. They obviously haven't. Girls should not be looking at these pictures. It gives a false imagine of any reality in the real world. I don't know anyone that looks like this, nor would I think they were pretty.  A beautiful woman is full. Minimum size 10, preferably size 12 and above. I will admit that I don't have a preference for really large ladies but these size tiny size girls that are freakishly tall do womanhood a complete injustice.

I know you guys don't look at these magazines. We try to look the way you want us to, to attract you to us. If this is what you think you want, I would like to know.  I can't imagine anyone thinking this is pretty. It just looks scary. It looks as if someone took the picture and squished it horizontally and stretched it vertically with a photo editing program.  Unreal!

I read an article from the news blips on Yahoo today about a fashion designer that brought in two plus models size 12 and 14 for his catwalk show in London recently. Two of the staff or models quit in disgust. How distorted is that? Most woman fall into this size range.

I know I am older. I have been there, wanting so bad to be as thin as possible. When I was skinny, I looked as if I were dying of starvation, not healthy. I am in better shape and have great muscle tone that I did not have in my youth. I have some fat that is there because I eat what I want, when I want it. Diet very rarely. I love to dance and do weights.  This is not going to make me skinny.  I am beautiful to the people that matter in my life. I don't have to have the whole world, just the ones that love unique redheads with a bit of flair.

        

It was so upsetting that in high school someone said I looked like Squeaky Fromme.  I hated my red hair then. That was the one of the worst most memorable moments. I was one of those geeky kids.  I got along with everyone yes. Red hair was not cool then. 

Now I look back at her pictures and think, not so terrible that I looked like her a bit.  She was kinda cute in a rather sadistic package yes. So if anyone one asks, yep I look like Lynnette.

        

A friend of mine has recently taken up the habit of buying classic porn movies and leaving them at my house. Having a general distaste for porn of late, I wondered why I didn't like porn any longer. I used to love to go to the video store and sneak behind the red curtain into the forbidden realm of the kinky.  After watching this particular movie, I know why I don't really like porn as much. The movies out now are not really movies anymore, not like CAFE FLESH. This was a great little film. Very dramatic and avant-garde. It is really old but I am sure it is just as much a relic as I am. I hate to think of myself as a relic. So let's just say everything old is new again.

The setting to build this interesting bit of a plot is after the NUCLEAR KISS. The destruction left 99% of the humans that survived sex negatives. The rest are, or course, sex positives. What kind of power is that?  In any case, if sex negatives try to have sex, they become violently ill.  So sex becomes a kind of a show for all the sex negatives, performed by the sex positives.

Now, I also remember, as I used to watch porn, getting to the sex  long before the movie ended. Maybe that is why so many producers dropped the story lines. Total bummer I say.  I, for one, need the plot. It aids my wicked imagination for sexual deviance.

All we have left today are hours and hours of endless clips. No story and no blending to even the weakest of plots. Some sort of plot made it a real attempt at naughty drama.  There is no art in endless displays of sexual acts with some camera man asking a 23 year old with fake tits what her favorite color is, among a stream of senseless discussion about nonsensical things.

You have to see if you can get your hands on this great movie. I would love to act out a part or two with one of my nasty little friends. Maybe you!

        

Found this hideous website called BitchesofCraigslist.com. I hate to even give it space here. I have to. It is horrid and wrong and misogynistic. Please, please and more please, can you guys have some sensitivity and if you look it over out of curiosity, ignore most of what is says.  This fellow is encouraging the wrong behavior. Please don't listen to him. Just to name a few things below:

1. Stolen content - Photos are supposed to be uploaded by the individual or a signed release from the model needs to be on file. I did not give this site permission to us my ad copy and my photos in this way. Calling myself a Bitch is not promotion in my mind.

2. He is giving wrong advice and most of the 10 things he mentions are the wrong things to say. You can't say anything about activity. You can't  ask for full service or whatever.  Unless you are looking to get busted or hung up on.

3. We are not Bitches. Unless we are role playing that role at the time. Not all of us act like bitches. Many of us come from nice backgrounds. We had great homes, upbringing with ethics and are kind, indulgent and giving women.

4. If you want advice on how to behave, ask some of the ladies. 

Here is my advice. Assess what your good points are before calling. If you are calling a real independent girl or woman, she is going to want to know if you are SAFE.  How she does this can be as different as the colors of the rainbow.  Here are some basics.

- Let her lead the conversation and answer her questions with real answers and not a question. Be prepared to give a name (preferably your real one).  Some information about yourself and put a smile in your voice. Remember, this is a kind of interview. An interview for  a safe experience for both of you.

- She might be a person that asks for references.

- Don't ask about activity. It will probably get you hung up on. .

- Call the right woman for you. If a woman says she want white collar, educated men, she probably means it.  If she says over 30,  she  means it.

- It's not about money as much as being appreciated and safe. 

NO CAN BE OUR FAVORITE WORD. IF YOU HAVE THIS GUYS ATTITUDE AND TAKE HIS ADVICE, I AM SURE YOU WILL HEAR NO NO NO NO NO.

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I love jazz. Whether it's from the 1920s through today. I love to sing. It's just that I get terrible stage fright. I love to karaoke with my friends in the living room. My one girlfriend B.., just loves to pick song after song for me to sing to her.  As long as someone is enjoying, I will keep singing somewhere.

This song was originally recorded in 1929. Music by Fats Waller, Lyrics by Harry Brooks
The first recording was done by Ruth Etting
Ray Charles and Eartha Kitt have also sung this song.

Here you go! My rendition of Ain't Misbehavin'. 

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My girlfriends and I often chat about appointments that have not gone so well. I am sure you might like to be a mouse in the corner after we have an upsetting client and discuss it with each other on the phone.  My friends in this arena are all mature ladies. They range in age from 35 on up. I must say that in reality, the women that DO NOT fit the stereotype of Pamela Anderson bombshell, are the best.  We are sturdy. We must be. Men can be very critical of our outside appearance. Much of the time, that is ALL they are interested in. 

Men will  play around with their boredom in the hobby.  They intentionally seek out the unusual girl or woman, with the intent on challenging their tolerance for something they ordinarily do not want in a woman.  What is with that?  If you don't like sushi, don't eat it. If you like AMP Chinese spinners, don't go to see a blond BBW in her thirties or a redhead in her forties.  We do not appreciate being the object of your experimentations on your personal tolerance level. 

Twice this week, I have had to talk two ladies down from their angry moods because of this type of behavior from some stupid men out there.  It is a horrible violation. It's a psychological rape from a very inconsiderate boob. These ladies did not deserve to have their days ruined. It is because of these idiots, that men who are sweet and deserving do not get proper attention sometimes. The sins of your brothers are taken out on you dear ones.

We have hearts and souls. We are interesting and complex as we grow into mature adults. When you get to know us, we can be challenging, sensual, erotic and fun. You might have to see past a few wrinkles and some fluff in the middle. We are the ones that will be here for you when you really need it.   I hope my friends let go of their anger. Why do you men have to try to make us bitter?

I welcome your thoughts. Talk me down please.

        

What no Resolution in January?

I did not really make any other than to cross my fingers and hope I survive if the economy further spirals into the abyss of depression rather than just recession. I am fairly intelligent and careful and have planned for a slow economy. How do you plan for the worst case scenario? Anyway, creativity is my only New Year's resolution. I am planning to be more creative and see where that leads.

I will be spending time in both Warhammer Online and Second Life. I want to encourage you to come see me in Second Life if your computer can handle it. Join my *Shalla's Cam Show* group. I know. I know where has your cam gone? Maybe I will bring it back soon.  I am just usually in my overalls or my jeans and working on a project or dancing.

I am taking tap dancing lessons and am having a ball. It's very funny as most of the ladies I dance with are quite older than I and we just do songs like Singing in the Rain and Anchors Away! How awesome is that?

Love and kisses

Check out my snaps from SL.

Here I am a Giantess Borg! I am full from eating little men.
Oh naked!
 


A few spoken words from me.

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I have had a busy month. I really did mean to get back to doing some podcasts. I am going to settle today for just an update. I have recently built a new computer.  I had to. My laptop just didn't have the POWER.  I am an avid gamer as many of you know.  I am now into Warhammer On-line. I had to quit in November as my laptop just could not handle the graphics and what not of this powerful MMO. So, my solution as opposed to buying a $3000 computer was to build my own for around $800.  I had some help and everything is going very smoothly with the game now.  Come do play Warhammer with me sometime soon.

I will be back soon to give further updates after I get all the details of my own site and log-ins and such all back into this new machine. I have to get back to telling you the silly things on my mind in my own true voice.

Love Love for the New Year! More Love, not Hate for 2009!